Allison M.

Thoughts on life, fashion, fabulousness, and (oh yeah) dressing up from a full-time male who's a part-time female


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A poem: “I See You”

Today (March 31) is the International Transgender Day of Visibility, which is a day meant to celebrate those who identify as transgender and to help raise awareness of discrimination faced by trans people everywhere.  (It should not be conflated with the Transgender Day of Remembrance, which occurs in November.)

I won’t get too much into the ins and outs of TDoV in this post, though I do recommend you learn more about the day (here is a good starting point).  What I do want to do is dedicate a few lines of prose (and passing references towards David Bowie and J. Geils Band) to this day and to trans people of all stripes, especially those who, by circumstance or choice, may not live out and proud.  While this prose may not be perfect, know that the words are meant to communicate my appreciation for you, whatever you may identify as.

“I See You”

I see you over there
Sitting all alone and scared
You’re not sure if you’re a boy or a girl
And it’s got your mother in a whirl

The world wants to put you down
And make you frown
They’re misguided for insisting you’re one thing
When you know you’re not what they’re saying

They want you to wear one set of clothes
A set in which you’ll never grow
For that, they think you’re an abomination
But, really, you’re an amazing creation

I know, they want to put you down
To keep you from wiping off your frown
You know you’re one thing
When everyone says you’re another
But to me, you’re more than a sister or a brother

No, really, you’re beautiful
Just the way you are
So don’t be afraid
Shine your own kind of light
Fight their darkness with your personality bright

Oh, I’m sorry
You don’t want to come out?
You do want to be the person you are
But you don’t want to scream or shout?

It’s okay, I understand
I have my own four-walled Neverland
Where I can feel free
And be who I know I be
Which is whatever gender I can be

But you want to be quiet about it
And, really, that’s okay
For it’s good, even better
To be more than whatever gender

But I do wish you can be free
You deserve to be who you know you be
Free from prying eyes
Free from disdaining eyes

Wait…  Please, wait…
Yes, I see you
And I do accept you
For you being you

No, it doesn’t matter to me
What gender you may be
Male or female
Maybe both, maybe neither

Know, though, that I admire you
And I will stand by you and with you
And help protect you
And keep the wolves at bay
No matter what the world may say
I’ll have your back until my last day

So go and be the real you
Do what you feel you can do
Whether you’re trans or non-binary
Or third gender or even spirit two

Fully displayed or in the closet
Know that you’re living honest

But if you’re not out now, don’t worry
For if the time comes when
You show the world who you are
There will be those who will call you friend

There will be those just like you
Or supportive and accepting of you
Who will have your back if you fall
And help you stand up and stand tall

I will be there with you
For today, I see you
And I love and respect you
Because no matter who you are
And no matter what others will say of you
You are living your life… amazingly
Just by being… you


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#TBT follow-up: Mallatt’s

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Mallatt’s owner Mike Flint outside his Willy Street location in 2010 (original photo source here)

I usually save any “Throwback Thursday” posts for the actual date, Thursday.  But even though it’s Tuesday, I don’t want to wait until Thursday, even though the subject in question is, sadly, not going anywhere.  Back in October, I talked up in this post Mallatt’s Pharmacy, which has… er, rather, had two locations here in Madison, the older west side location on Monroe Street and a more generally recent east side location on Williamson Street.  Mallatt’s had a couple of locations outside the Madison city limits, but they were no national chain, that’s for sure.  Since it was established in 1926, Mallatt’s had been a nice, convenient corner pharmacy, one who’s much more intimate than those national chains (like, say, Walgreens) whose stores are sterile, antiseptic clones of each other.

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Allison’s (not entirely about) fashion summary (2/22/2017 edition)

Despite the title of this post, I’m devoting this post less to fashion and more to catching up on a couple of comings and goings (literally) at the mall a mile from where I live (West Towne Mall, for the record).  Well, it’s not so much comings as it is comings, as it involves two formerly-significant clothing stores that have fallen on hard times as brick-and-mortar entities and have left the mall, and two stories that I’ve been meaning to bring up on here.

Let’s begin with Aéropostale.  If you recall this post from last October, I mentioned that Aéropostale was in the process of closing many of its stores as part of its Chapter 11 bankruptcy reorganization.  And though it wasn’t part of that early list of closures, the Aéropostale at West Towne turned out to later be among them.  It was a weird sight strolling past the mall during the last holiday shopping season and seeing not only signs saying “Store Closing!” and Entire Store 50-70% off!” but also “New Arrivals!”  Oh, and a “now hiring seasonal help” sign as well.

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Who to meet? Where to go?

I want to devote this quick post to a comment a reader left on a couple of my posts this week.  I did not approve their comments as I thought the comments section wasn’t an appropriate place to address their pretty good inquiry.  Luckily, I’m one to think long and hard about their questions can devote a new post to the answers.

I won’t single out this person by name or gender, but I will describe what they said they were:  They are into crossdressing; they had recently relocated to the Madison, Wisconsin area; and they were inquiring about crossdresser-friendly social groups and organizations in Madison.  They also asked about any places in Madison where a crossdresser would be socially accepted.

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Allison’s day at the march

My previous post was rather obliquely about the Women’s March that occurred here in Madison last Saturday (January 21), but… wait, you thought the only Women’s March occurred in Washington last weekend?  I’ll just presume you weren’t paying attention to the news, because in nearly 600 locales here in the United States and worldwide, millions of people took to the streets to highlight very important issues in society, including but not limited to health care, environment, and women’s and racial issues, as well as stand up to the very ugly, hateful, and misogynistic culture that the new leadership the U.S., fronted by a certain thin-orange-skinned leader, is so easily propagating.

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Allison in Madison: Rocky Rococo

Time for a quick edition of “Allison in Madison,” and this entry is tinged with a hint of sadness.  Don’t worry, this post won’t be all maudlin.  Before I go any further, let me ask you this:  Who loves pizza?!  Ooooh, I bet there are a lot of you out there raising your hands.  Well, here in Madison and most of Wisconsin, this is a frequent sight:

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Rocky Rococo is a well-known chain of pizza restaurants, including the West Towne Mall location pictured above (that image is not from me but was found online; I didn’t yet get the chance to take a picture of a location myself).  Rocky Rococo’s (or just Rocky’s for short) specialty is pan-style pizza.  So what, you say?  Well, yes, most places such as Pizza Hut and Domino’s and Little Caesars are known for selling pizza by the whole pie.  Rocky’s does that, too, but they specialize in pizza by the slice.  To the layperson (or at least me), it did sound like a somewhat revolutionary idea when the chain first started out with one store in the mid-1970s, and it sounded well suited for college students or other single people who had a hankering for pizza but didn’t want a lot of cold pizza occupying their refrigerator the next morning.  Rocky’s has continued their by-the-slice model — complete with fine ingredients, tangy sauce, and dough made every day — to this very day, although they also do sell salad and similar healthy fare, along with full-sized pizza pies (including a special one I’ll talk about later).

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