Allison M.

A crossdresser's thoughts on life, fashion, fabulousness, and (oh yeah) dressing up


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Onward and…

Just over 14 months ago, I wound up having to go on a job search.  No, it wasn’t fun not having employment to go to after almost 16 years.  But it was enlightening in that it allowed me to understand the strengths I could provide to another employer, as well as some aspects I could improve upon.

Thankfully, that time between jobs was short.  Matter of fact, one month to the day that my position was eliminated and I departed my employer of almost 16 years, I took a 7-day temporary assignment with a company on Madison’s east side.  It would lead, just a couple of days later, to another temporary assignment.  And while it was an assignment that could be confusing, frustrating, and overwhelming at times, I stuck with it.  And stuck with it.  And accepted the challenges it threw at me.  I stuck with it so much that I’ve been there for 13 months.

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What a… flirt?

There’s a little something I didn’t include in my summary of the OutReach Magic Festival, which occurred two weekends ago, but wanted to talk up in a separate post.  Don’t be alarmed, for it was a relatively minor thing.  Matter of fact, it’s something that felt peculiar to me initially, yet I find myself thinking about it quite a lot.

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The 2019 OutReach Magic Festival

Last weekend was the third weekend of August, one in which Madison’s LGBT+ community celebrates and puts on a show.  Normally, that would have included a parade up State Street and a rally around the Capitol Square.  This year, however, thanks to city ordinances, police department demands, and organizational logistics, event organizers went back to the future, as it were…

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Some lingering birthday thoughts

The euphoria (and sugar high) surrounding my turning 50 years old a couple of weeks ago has now long subsided.  But whatever the day, I can still relate to stories about turning another year older — even if it’s not my own birthday.  As an introductory, let me share with you video from Rachel Brosnahan’s recent appearance on The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon.  In leading off this appearance, Rachel talks about a bit of a birthday inaccuracy.

I’ve never told anyone that my birthday is on any day other than August 3.  But I can certainly relate to how Rachel’s birthday went from July to April to December, and it’s not out of anyone’s chicanery or anything.  I’ve mentioned it in passing on here before, but I will happily elaborate further in this entry…

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Allison’s forty-tenth birthday

The way the calendar works, one’s birthday doesn’t always fall on the same day of the week every year.  So it is with my birthday, which the past few years fell on a work day.  Luckily, this year my 50th birthday fell on a Saturday.  And when my family texted me yesterday to bid me their good wishes, they wondered what I would be doing during the day.  A natural question, what with my 50th falling on a weekend.  I told them I wouldn’t be doing anything big, just relaxing at home.

Oh, boy, was I lying like a dog.

Past-the-knee knit dress & birthday ribbon

That’s yours truly posing for the camera early Saturday evening at one of the more popular restaurants in the Madison area, The Great Dane.  The dress is literally brand new, as well as a birthday present to myself.  Earlier in the day, I made a quick bee line for errands and stopped off at Forever 21 in West Towne Mall to treat myself to not only a new stylish addition to my wardrobe, but also something that will fit me comfortably and not show a lot of leg (I didn’t have enough time for me to shave them, and I’ll explain why in a moment).

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Creepy lays out an ultimatum

Most of my male-mode time of late, apart from performing my work assignment, has been spent considering, entertaining, or just contemplating other work opportunities.  The good news on that front is that I did make contact with another staffing agency, who’ve hinted that they may have something come September that my work skills could be a good fit for.

Of course, some agency’s claim that potential something good is not a guarantee that there will actually be something that will not only be available to me but also provide a sense of personal satisfaction.  Which is why there’s also this little bit of good news for me:  The organization where I’m currently assigned appears pleased by my work, at least enough to hope that I’ll stay with them past August and into September… when either I’ll have something else lined up or, Heaven willing, I’ll have enough work to keep me busy (and employed, and paid) where I’m at right now.

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All About R.

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Image source: IMDb.com

If you are a movie buff, or at least one who enjoys a story about behind-the-scenes drama, you probably know the film All About Eve.  Based on a 1946 short story by Mary Orr, the 1950 motion picture is regarded as one of the best films of all time, nominated for 14 Academy Awards and winning 6, the most prominent of the wins being Best Picture.

I’ve seen All About Eve only once.  Well, I should say I actually heard it, when the story was re-enacted for radio a decade ago.  I never saw the Bette Davis/Anne Baxter original, nor any other adaptation produced since then, including, obviously, the British stage adaptation put on earlier this year and whose poster you see to the right (more on why I included this particular poster in a moment).

For those who don’t know how All About Eve goes down, the gist is this (and, yes, ***SPOILERS ARE AHEAD***, thanks to the description on Wikipedia):  Margo Channing, grand dame of Broadway, is introduced to a besotted fan, Eve Harrington.  Impressed by her fawning fandom, Margo takes Eve into her home and hires her as an assistant.  But distrust in Eve begins to swell in Margo, especially after Eve becomes her stage understudy.  By then, the manipulative and ambitious Eve is well under the skin of both Margo and those around her.

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Drip… drip… drip…

This past Wednesday was a pretty eventful one for me.  It started out very first thing in the morning as I was getting ready for a job interview (the subject of my next post, I promise).  And it started as most of my mornings usually do:  Get up, tool around the computer for a while, head into the kitchen for breakfast.

But there was a twist in my routine:  I noticed that a leather footstool in my living room was wet.  I knew for a certainty that I hadn’t spilled anything the night before, so after wiping off the water with a towel, I looked straight up and saw a line of condensation beading up in the ceiling.  Yep, I had a leaky ceiling, which made its presence much more evident when I reached up to wipe off the beading… and a steady downward drip resulted.

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Some real Independence Day music

Time for an unofficial version of “Allison’s Jukebox,” unofficial in that someone else deserves credit for bringing to the world’s attention these songs on this day (I’ll credit him later).  Here in the United States, this day when I write this is Independence Day.  This is the day when, 243 years ago, the “thirteen original colonies” gave a big “screw you” to a certain royal monarch, declared their independence, and tried to live happily ever after.

Emphasis on “tried” in that last paragraph, of course, for the past 243 years have not been all peaches and cream for our fair country.  For one, there was a brutal civil war whose side effects we still can’t overcome over a century and a half later.  As well, if you haven’t been paying attention to the news the past two and a half years, we’re being led into darkness by a certain man wearing an ill-fitting suit, bad-looking toupee, and a petulant ego that makes him think he’s a royal monarch.

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Why we must keep going

By now, I hope you have read my previous two posts (found here and here) dedicated to the anniversary of a momentous event.  The Stonewall riots, which started 50 years ago this morning (June 28, 1969), were a significant milestone on the way toward respect and equality for those in the broad LGBT+ community.  For sure, today is a day to recognize where our community has come from, celebrate the rights we have earned, and remember the long and hard fight that connects then to now… and continues into the future.

I need to bring up that aspect because as you are fully aware of, our LGBT+ community are still facing threats, even with our well-earned victories.  For every person who waives a rainbow flag, there is another wanting to tear it from their hands.  For every pride parade ready to step off, there is a group wanting to block us or wish us out of existence.  For every same-sex couple making their relationship legal, there is a legislator (and an entire political party) seeking to deny them that right.  And for every trans person wanting to display their true colors, and desiring to show the world that they are real human beings, there are those who only see them as deviant and disgusting.

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