Allison M.

A crossdresser's thoughts on life, fashion, fabulousness, and (oh yeah) dressing up

When a playful side comes out

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Slightly risque and not quite perfect in leather

Just a quick thought to share.  And, yes, this photo looks familiar.  It’s one of the pictures I shared in my previous post, during which I recounted my day posing for Caitlin at Smoketree Photography (gotta give credit where credit is due).  When I posted this photo to Flickr, I added an aside I want to expand on a little bit here.  One of the outtakes from my session with Caitlin was of me having a little bit of playful fun with the traffic driving past our shooting location.  I gave the traffic a playful waive of the hand, as if to say, “Well, hello there, good looking.”

One thing’s for sure:  Male Mode Me would never do something as playful as that.

If you’ve ever put on a costume for Halloween, perhaps you notice that your personality changes a little bit.  Your inhibitions start to loosen up, and you go from someone who’s rather reserved to one who is more outgoing than usual.  The happy feelings you exude rub off on everyone around you; that joy and happiness spreads quickly.  It’s almost as if a light switch in your mind is flicked from “off” to “on,” doesn’t it?

Every time I get dressed up, be it for venturing out or just staying inside, I notice a clear change in my personality.  Male Mode Me and his straitlaced, reserved personality “steps out of sight” for a bit.  In his place steps Allison, ready to brighten everyone’s day and offer a little bit of playfulness for the mirror, a camera, or a stranger passing by.

For sure, I am definitely more confident and outgoing when dressed up as Allison, which isn’t always how Male Mode Me appears to be.  Methinks Male Mode Me could stand to learn a lesson or two from Allison.

For my fellow crossdressers out there:  When you shed those male mode clothes and step into your favorite skirt or dress, do you tend to notice a more playful, more outgoing, more confident version of yourself making their presence known?

Author: Allison M.

A part of the trans community ("cross-dresser" is the term that applies to me) who finds themselves much more expressive and somewhat more confident when presenting in a feminine persona. An admirer and supporter of those who are fashionable, fabulous, and friendly (LGBT or otherwise). Someone who tries to be witty and unique, but is not even remotely perverted or a pariah (I am a real human being, just like you). Using various writing styles on this blog to communicate thoughts and feelings concerning my life experiences, fashion sense, and the world at large (and maybe impressing my high school creative writing teacher who deservedly gave me middling grades).

2 thoughts on “When a playful side comes out

  1. Yes. It was quite a surprise to me when I started needing to dress later in life. Firstly needing to dress shocked me but so did the difference in the way I felt en femme.
    Hard to define but I am more relaxed, I feel beautiful whether I appear so to others, and this is so diferent from male me. I have a somewhat broader outlook on life and I am not so task obsessed as my male self is.
    I don’t know whether I’m more outgoing as a woman as my opportunities to socialise are non existent but I suspect I would be.
    I guess by dressing as a woman we bypass the social expectation on how a man should be and act and feel.
    Powerful stuff this crossdressing isn’t it?
    As they say, what doesn’t kill us only makes us feel more beautiful.
    Love,
    Geraldine

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    • So in agreement, Geraldine. I think it does feel as if I’m shedding my male-mode concerns and commitments when I’m dressed up as Allison. I do feel more outgoing and have an increased self-confidence when dressed up. That I live in a progressive city (Madison) really helps; quite a few people I’ve encountered when I’m en femme around here haven’t batted an eye when I walk past.

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