Allison M.

A crossdresser's thoughts on life, fashion, fabulousness, and (oh yeah) dressing up

Good, bad, and uneasy about my eyes

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I underwent my annual eye examination on Saturday, and the outcome gave me some good, bad, and uneasy feelings.  Let’s summarize:

Good:  The eye doctor said that my eyes were in good health, which is good (Yay!) considering the family history I will mention below.

Bad:  A scan of my eyes revealed a possible question mark regarding the health of my right eye.  It’s something “outside of normal,” according to the doctor, though not too much outside of normal.

Good:  The eye doctor thinks said question mark could be a minor abnormality and that I shouldn’t worry about it just yet.  I guess we’ll check it out again in a year.

Uneasy:  Reading (and re-reading) said scan results has made me anxious about this precious of the 5 senses.  Sure, it may indeed be nothing to worry about, but it’s the pits to know that my eyes are not perfect, and that just as the rest of one’s body ages over time, so do one’s eyes. My grandmother had glaucoma and cataracts in her later years; my mom will need to undergo cataract surgery within the next year, and she’s no spring chicken either.   And on top of that, the eye doctor intimated to me that everyone will have cataracts in their lifetime.  It’s a bummer to think about.

Good:  I’ll be getting new eyeglass lenses in the coming days, the better to help alleviate eye strain caused by being on the computer all the time.

Bad:  I still need glasses, and likely always will.  Well, that’s a given since I’ve worn glasses since I was 8 years old and my eyes see everything as a blur when I don’t have them on.  You probably couldn’t tell that from my various photos that I need glasses, do you?  Well, 9 times out of 10, I temporarily put my glasses to the side when I’m taking a picture as Allison, and shedding them helps assure, in my mind at least, that my male and female sides have a distinct look (“Clark Kent vs. Supergirl” is how I like to term the comparison).

Good:  I get to keep my eyeglass frames, which I’ve had for over a decade, are still in very good shape (one replaceable ear rest notwithstanding), and look flattering on me whether I’m presenting as male or female.  Seriously, I love how they don’t take up very much of my face (i.e. they’re not dark frames that hide my facial features).

Uneasy:  The total cost of the new lenses and the exam that preceded them set me back about $850.  You’re asking why so much and why must I pay out of pocket?  Well, to answer the first question, I have separate eyeglass pairs for working on the computer and for regular “distance” vision, and I switch back and forth between them whenever I step to or away from my computer.  The latter reason is that my eye doctor and the place where I get my glasses (okay, it’s LensCrafters) are not currently on my vision plan.  However, there’s still a chance I can recoup some of that cost when I submit my claim to the insurance provider.  That’s not a guarantee I’ll get 100% of that cost back, but I gotta hope.

Good:  Putting the special anti-glare and anti-strain coating on the lenses won’t take forever.  Well, okay, it’ll take about a week, but that’s not forever.  And it’s not like I’ll be blind as a bat waiting for them (I’ve still got my old lenses on my glasses, and putting the new lenses in when they arrive will take just an hour).

Uneasy:  All this talk about glasses makes me wish I would have considered contact lenses earlier in my lifetime.  I never had since I have the fear of discomfort if I were to wear them, not to mention losing them inside my eyelids or out of my eyes if they were to pop out.  My sister wears contacts, and many years ago when we shared a duplex and I got a coupon for a trial offer of contacts in the mail, I immediately gave the coupon to Sis, lest said “great deal” go to waste.

Good:  I have peace of mind for another year knowing that my eyes are healthy.  Now, if there were a way to waive a magic wand on my eyes and give them 20/20 vision, that would be even better.

Author: Allison M.

A part of the trans community ("cross-dresser" is the term that applies to me) who finds themselves much more expressive and somewhat more confident when presenting in a feminine persona. An admirer and supporter of those who are fashionable, fabulous, and friendly (LGBT or otherwise). Someone who tries to be witty and unique, but is not even remotely perverted or a pariah (I am a real human being, just like you). Using various writing styles on this blog to communicate thoughts and feelings concerning my life experiences, fashion sense, and the world at large (and maybe impressing my high school creative writing teacher who deservedly gave me middling grades).

One thought on “Good, bad, and uneasy about my eyes

  1. Sight truly is precious and Allison it is necessary to look after our general health and our eyes but we can make life ordinary and probably reduce our health with worry.
    Cataract surgery if it has to happen to you one day is a twenty minute procedure under local and home in three hours.
    So pleased to hear that your sight is generally good. Be positive. Eat well. Live healthily
    And great mascara and eye makeup!

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