Allison M.

A crossdresser's thoughts on life, fashion, fabulousness, and (oh yeah) dressing up

My Christmas tree (and a confession)


This post is to promote a new video I added to my relatively spare but strangely bustling YouTube channel, and it’s about the Christmas tree set up in my apartment this season.  But there’s something I must confess (no, not that):  I haven’t really gotten into the Christmas spirit this year.

Now, you’ve probably taken a glance at that video’s title and thought, “Gee, Allison, you have a tree and decorations set up, so you must be in the holiday spirit.”  Well, I decorate my apartment each holiday season for two reasons:  To let the great decorations I have in storage out of the broom closet for several weeks at the end of each year (and I have some nice ornaments), and to try to perk myself up and get into the holiday spirit.

But this year, I’ve found getting into even a little bit of “Ho! Ho! Ho!” holiday spirit really difficult.  For sure, a reason has been that I usually steadfastly shy away from any radio station playing round-the-clock holiday music (and here in Madison, we have two stations doing that well-worn stunt, and for a brief while this season, it was three).  And I haven’t watched very much in the way of Christmas specials on television, though I did see a good portion of that performance special with Pentatonix (not too bad of a show, really).  It’s possible that I could get around to watching an airing of National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation if it comes around again; that film does seem to cheer me up.

But, honestly, the chief reasons I’m still not in the holiday spirit have been the awful year we’re about to leave behind and the dark, divisive political atmosphere we still find ourselves in.  I mean, if you’re part of a historically marginalized group (the LGBTQ community) that could very well become even more marginalized, you would worry.  The hope that our country and planet doesn’t split apart in 2017, as well as the hope that our collective livelihoods aren’t disrupted, weigh so heavily on my mind, and probably yours as well.

But it’s not like I haven’t made the effort to feel all holly and jolly.  I’m this close to finishing my shopping chores for this season; it helps that my family’s Christmas get-together won’t happen until New Year’s Eve (a subject matter for another post).  I even treated my team at work to pizza last week (yummy yet pound-packing).

And, as you will see in this video, I have indeed hauled out the ornaments, stuck them on a tree, and called it festiveness.  As usually happens with my decorating abilities, this tree isn’t the prettiest.  I’m a guy, mind you, so I have a tendency to just stick garland and bobbles on a tree and be done with hit.  That’s the reason the strings of beads appear messy and tangled, and the ornaments appear to be placed every which way.

Still, putting up a tree is the least I can do to try to get into the holiday spirit.  And as you may tell from the joyful tone I try to put on, it does perk up my attitude just a little bit, even if only for 6 minutes and change.

So, watch and enjoy this video.  Please forgive me for my not-so-perfect presentation skills (although I admit I didn’t write a script and uttered everything off the cuff), my less-than-perfect Bob Sheppard impression (“Now batting…”), my very less-than-perfect makeup job (even I had to say “Yuck!” when seeing the finished product), and my million-miles-away-from-perfect singing abilities.  But know that I’m trying to make spirits bright, if not mine than certainly yours.

As I express in the video, whatever holiday you’re celebrating, however you’re celebrating it, and whoever you’re celebrating it with, here’s hoping that your season is as happy and joyous as possible, not to mention a safe one.  Happy holidays, everyone!


Author: Allison M.

A part of the trans community ("cross-dresser" is the term that applies to me) who finds themselves much more expressive and somewhat more confident when presenting in a feminine persona. An admirer and supporter of those who are fashionable, fabulous, and friendly (LGBT or otherwise). Someone who tries to be witty and unique, but is not even remotely perverted or a pariah (I am a real human being, just like you). Using various writing styles on this blog to communicate thoughts and feelings concerning my life experiences, fashion sense, and the world at large (and maybe impressing my high school creative writing teacher who deservedly gave me middling grades).

3 thoughts on “My Christmas tree (and a confession)

  1. Allison may I wish you a very happy and peaceful Christmas. Thanks for your blogs throughout the year and let’s hope for a better new year where we all have each other’s backs.
    Stay beautiful,

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