Allison M.

A crossdresser's thoughts on life, fashion, fabulousness, and (oh yeah) dressing up

Wishing and wondering and hoping

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If you caught my post from last week, you learned that I have been contemplating leaving my current place of employment, wishing for a job at another frontier where the pastures are hopefully greener.  Indeed, I have applied online for a couple of positions where I believed my talents and skills (such as they are) are a good fit.  Well, either I need to do some follow-up work with these prospective employers — which can be hard to do when you’re applying through job sites or they specifically tell you “no calls or e-mails, please” — or they weren’t too keen about my resume… or my job skills.

Which is not to say that none of these prospective employers are beating a path to my door.  In fact, several have e-mailed me.  Well, I should clarify that statement with these bullet points showing what they’re offering:

  • “A job doing nothing but handling incoming calls?”  Uh, no.
  • “A short-term contracted position?”  Definitely not; I’m wanting full-time stuff.
  • “An exciting opportunity in sales?”  I’m the worst salesperson.
  • “An opportunity to sell insurance?”  Again, I couldn’t sell snow to a ski resort.
  • “An Uber driver?”  Well, it does sound interesting, but my car has only two doors.

But despite all of that, there was one actual, legitimate company where I applied and they called back.  I wasn’t sure if my skills would have been a good fit, but dang gummit, they left me a message anyway.  So, after a few rounds of telephone tag, I finally got a hold of them, and they asked me a few pointed questions.  Ah, yes, the over-the-phone pre-screening.  And here’s where I blew my chances, because I really didn’t prepare myself for what they would ask.

Looking back on that phone call 3 days ago with that prospective employer (or their human resources department, actually), I imagine it wasn’t so much the questions that threw me off but my articulation (or lack of it) when responding.  I did not sound cavalier or dismissive about the questions, if you’re wondering; far from it, in fact, for I sounded professional and sincere when responding.  However, I think my hems and haws may have left a bad impression on the interviewer.  He politely let me know he would forward my name and resume to the hiring manager, who would call me back if they were interested.  It’s been 3 days, and I have not heard from them (*sigh*).  It’s left me wondering how I can get improve my interview and presentation skills for that next phone call or interview, which I’m hoping will be soon.

But all is not lost when it comes to my job search.  I’m in the process of spiffing up my resume, and I’m looking forward to sending it out again.  And I am still with my current employer, where last week my supervisor and I sat down for my annual performance review.  It was at that review where I… wait for it… received good marks and an overall rating of “superior in job performance.”  To paraphrase that quote from The Godfather: Part III, just when I think I’m about to be left out, they pull me back in.  For now.


Author: Allison M.

A part of the trans community ("cross-dresser" is the term that applies to me) who finds themselves much more expressive and somewhat more confident when presenting in a feminine persona. An admirer and supporter of those who are fashionable, fabulous, and friendly (LGBT or otherwise). Someone who tries to be witty and unique, but is not even remotely perverted or a pariah (I am a real human being, just like you). Using various writing styles on this blog to communicate thoughts and feelings concerning my life experiences, fashion sense, and the world at large (and maybe impressing my high school creative writing teacher who deservedly gave me middling grades).

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