Allison M.

A crossdresser's thoughts on life, fashion, fabulousness, and (oh yeah) dressing up

#TBT follow-up: Allison speaks!


The last day of 2015 is a Thursday, and with it comes the last of my #ThrowbackThursday follow-ups of posts I wrote during the year.  And not to sound too braggadocio, but this will be la crème de la crème:  You’re actually going to hear my voice!

If you recall, I made a couple of mentions on here (well, here and here actually) about a project on YouTube last spring called “Dear Me” (er, actually #DearMe), which featured women sending messages of encouragement and advice to their younger selves — and by extension, any young person who may be watching.

#DearMe really piqued my interest, so much so that I thought about adding my own contribution.  I mean, I have the backstory, and I have a YouTube account (underused as it may be).  So, on the final day of 2015, I got dressed, put my makeup on, clicked “record” on my laptop computer’s video camera, and, after several false starts, composed a video to my 12-year-old self — yes, the same kid who faced a lot of insecurity and lack of self-confidence, but also started to gain a whole new level of safety after discovering a stash of women’s lingerie and clothing in the spare bedroom of his family’s farm house.

Now, as you can tell when you watch this video, I am wearing my regular male mode glasses (I can’t see a thing without them).  You may also see my eyes darting back and forth; I wrote out all that I wanted to tell my younger self.

Of course, you’ll also hear my actual speaking voice.  Well, as close to a feminized speaking voice as I could get.  You can clearly notice my Wisconsin accent in this video; I wish I could shake that dialect.

But despite the glasses and the eyes and the accent (and the length; it’s 9 minutes long because I had a lot to say), I hope you get a sense of what I wanted to accomplish with this #DearMe video:  That even a kid as insecure as I was (and sometimes still am as an adult) can gain a positive feeling about themselves when hearing encouraging words from the person they turn out to be.

Please watch the video, and let me know your thoughts.  Thank you so much for watching.


Author: Allison M.

A part of the trans community ("cross-dresser" is the term that applies to me) who finds themselves much more expressive and somewhat more confident when presenting in a feminine persona. An admirer and supporter of those who are fashionable, fabulous, and friendly (LGBT or otherwise). Someone who tries to be witty and unique, but is not even remotely perverted or a pariah (I am a real human being, just like you). Using various writing styles on this blog to communicate thoughts and feelings concerning my life experiences, fashion sense, and the world at large (and maybe impressing my high school creative writing teacher who deservedly gave me middling grades).

5 thoughts on “#TBT follow-up: Allison speaks!

  1. What a touching video. No embellishments, no frills, just you speaking to your younger self. Must have taken a lot of confidence to go in front of the camera, eh? Very brave of you. I enjoyed it, and I am sure that the video speaks to everyone out there who are going through difficult moments in their childhood, cross-dressing or something else.

    Any case, here’s to a wonderful new year, and new things to come! Take care, Allison.

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    • Thank you. It indeed took a lot of bravery for me to speak in a nowhere-near-perfect feminine voice in front of the camera, just as it’s taken a lot of gumption on my part to share a very personal story. And, yes, I do hope my words inspire anyone of any age to reach into themselves for some self-confidence. Thank you again for your kind comments, and Happy New Year to you. 🙂

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