Well, the time is at hand: The end of one year and the start of another. Though it may be a simple change of one digit (or two), I’ve always thought brand new years are accompanied by the loud clanging noise of a big, giant gong. I mean, it’s the future, right? So, cover your ears and brace yourself, because here it comes:
“Two thousand fifteen!!” [GONG!!!!!!!!!]
Whew! There now. With the New Year making a big noise, two thousand fourteen is headed for the history books. In the grand scheme of things, this old year wasn’t the greatest, was it? I mean, politics, controversy, disasters. Not a lot of fun if you ask me. But not every person sees their year the same way; a peak moment for one could be a difficult valley to navigate for another. My own 2014 had its share of peaks and valleys, and here’s a little bit of how it went:
- I dressed up. Well, of course I did; the above montage serves as visual proof. The times I dressed up in private were a great stress breaker, and with some of the stress I had during the year, my time for Allison was a godsend.
- I maintained my online connections. Those who follow me on Flicker, URNA, or Twitter (I’m @AllisonMadison, by the way) are the bestest peoples. Whether they’re gay, straight, or otherwise, or whether they’re a guy, girl, or a little bit of both, I’m so happy and honored by their friendship, their support, and their kind words. Thank you so much!
- Put those two together and you get this next bullet point: I had a 1-on-1 dressup session, which I haven’t had a chance to do in a long, long time. I had a back-and-forth connection with one of my online friends, and we always wanted the chance to get together, dress up, and get all girly. Well, my friend and I got together one Saturday afternoon this past summer at my place, where we dressed up together, snapped a few pictures, and had some good conversation about crossdressing and life. Though it lasted only a couple of hours, it was an enjoyable experience. I won’t reveal this person’s identity, but I will say to her that, if you’re reading this, gurl, our time together was a blast, and I hope we do it again in the future.
- I started this WordPress blog, and with me being a person of few words, that was a pretty big thing in itself. Sure, it may be just a couple of months old, but my adventures in blogging is a great challenge, allowing me to express my thoughts on crossdressing, fashion, and life that no photo stream or tweet could accommodate.
- Of course, there were some hard parts, including personal loss amongst my family. In January, one of my cousins on my mom’s side and her husband lost their young son, which was truly heartbreaking. I’m not sure if they will be in attendance during my mom’s family’s annual get together after the 1st of the year, but I hope their sorrow has eased a little bit, and that they know their little angel is looking down on them. In November, I lost an aunt on my stepfather’s side; she had been sick for some time (let’s just say smoking is very bad for you), and we hadn’t talked in several years (let’s just say there was a bad situation between our family and hers that led to a major falling out), but it’s going to be hard to get used to the fact that she’s no longer around. I sincerely hope her family is holding up well.
- And there was something that didn’t quite happen to me but still cast a pall over my year: I almost lost my job. Back in February, myself and two of my teammates were led into the department manager’s office and were told that one of us would be laid off the next morning (you know, due to “work projection” and “staffing needs”). Though I’m thankful I wasn’t the odd one out, knowing that one of my teammates lost her position did not make me happy that I was sticking around. In fact, the whole situation was enough to make me sad to no end (yeah, I admit I bawled my eyes out and had a couple of sleepless nights). Realizing that 12 years with the company was not a guarantee of a 13th year, I began lining up references and professional connections and explored some possible work opportunities outside my employer. I’m still with my old employer and actually took on additional duties; however, I empathize with others who are seeking new employment, including a couple of my online friends. One thing I’ve learned for sure: When it comes to gainful employment, nothing is guaranteed.
But all that was in 2014. What do I hope do do in 2015? Well let’s see….
- I’ll aim to shape up and eat right. Oh, wait…. (Hold on, self, you definitely should be doing that, but let’s fill this post with easier targets to attain. Well, okay then….)
- I’ll continue to dress up (of course) and snap more photos. If there’s one thing that cheers me up, it’s getting all gurly, watching the birdie, and saying “cheese.”
- I’ll continue to maintain my online connections, whether they be for my masculine, professional side, or my feminine, personal side. They may be online only (well, some of them anyway), but building friendships can mean so very much.
- As well, I will seek to be supportive. There are others like me, whether they are a crossdresser or a human being, that may be in a difficult situation or a new adventure. It’s my hope to lend an ear for their worries, a hand if they need support or assistance, and a round of applause if and when something goes their way. Your friendship means so much to me; I hope that mine means just as much for you.
- I will seek out more gurl time with fellow CDs, and if I get enough gumption, venture out with fellow gurls (Madison has some CD supportive outlets, the last time I checked).
- I will continue blogging. I can’t wait to continue my thoughts on fashion and dressing up. Like I said above, blogging has become a great avenue to express myself–every side of myself.
- I will prepare myself professionally should the time come to seek new employment, whether the exit plan is initiated by myself or forced upon me. (My mom may have to prepare herself as well, but I won’t get into that too much here.)
- As well, I will try to think positive. If seeking new employment becomes necessary, or even having to seek a new apartment (my lease expires at the end of April), I’ll try to remember that if one door closes, another door is somewhere ready to open for me; I just gotta figure out when and where that door will open. With me being a worrywart and all, staying positive can be the hardest thing to do, but it is necessary for one’s emotional well being.
- And above all else, I will try to be happy and hopeful that when 2015 ends and 2016 begins, myself, my family and friends will find ourselves in a happier, healthier, and more positive position than when 2015 began.
Those are my wishes and resolutions for the new year. (And to think I’ve never been one to make New Year’s resolutions.) Whatever your hopes and dreams are for the new year, here’s hoping we all have a great 365 days. Happy new year, everyone!